I told myself earlier today that I could skip Microblog Monday this week, but I find that I can't do that. It will be too hard to go to sleep without writing something, so here I am, writing about nothing, and setting where it goes.
Both my husband and I have been hit with a nasty virus within about 36 hours, so we haven't even been able to look after each other. As always, I imagine how much harder this would be if we had children. But I think that I'm still allowed to feel miserable! The cumulative effect of this year - my mother's deterioration then death, my accident, my father-in-law's heart attacks, the slow and painful recuperation, and the results of my MRI last week (you never want to hear a Dr. say "it's not good news I'm afraid"), and now this virus - have me feeling pretty sorry for myself. I am trying to be grateful for what I have. Yes, it could be worse. But some years just suck, and I'm giving myself permission to acknowledge that.
Get well soon!
ReplyDeleteI know, it is hard to be grateful sometimes.
It sounds like you are doing the right thing!
ReplyDeletesometimes things suck and it OK to say that, it does not diminish your gratefulness.
Sending get well vibes your way.
I hope that you get some good sleep and soup and that this bumpy part of the path leaves its rocks behind...so there is nothing left for you to carry.
Yes, some years do suck. Take gentle care. My thoughts are with you.
ReplyDeletePeace.
Awww, Mali, I am sorry. :( Some years do suck (thinking of 1998-99, in my case). Hoping you are both on the mend soon.
ReplyDeleteWhen sick, you are allowed to feel awful on all levels. It's been a tough year for you too. So no need to try to justify needing to feel more grateful. Just focus on healing.
ReplyDeleteOy, that's rough. Hope you get feeling better soon!
ReplyDeleteOh no, feel better! Absolutely you are allowed to feel miserable...otherwise it's that whole evil "at least" thing. Heal up soon and feel as miserable as you'd like...viruses are awful.
ReplyDelete2016 can't leave fast enough for you! This has definitely been a year of sucky. I hope the remaining few months are event-less.
ReplyDeleteI hope that you and DH get to feeling better soon! Sending some virtual chicken soup your way!
That was my 2014 - 2015. I couldn't wish it away fast enough. And then felt guilty wishing away time. Sending a hug and hope you feel better soon.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry you are having a difficult year. Hope you feel well as soon as possible!
ReplyDeleteI struggle with the "staying grateful" narrative. On the one hand I think it's really necessary to remember all we have, but on the other hand, sometimes we need to acknowledge what is hard. There must be a way to do both at the same time, but I haven't figured out how, at least not very gracefully.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry you're having such a hard year. I think it's totally understandable that you feel a bit beaten down by it. Some years do that to us. I hope next year is so, so much better.
Sometimes you just have to go through it to get through it. Your resilience in hindsight will astound you.
ReplyDelete<3 <3 <3 I hope you both are feeling much better now. I think it's totally OK to sometimes to not feel grateful. We all need to be allowed to feel poopy sometimes. Here is to an easier October <3
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