For ten years, I’ve maintained a Word document with backups of all posts (Mel would be proud of me) I’ve written, and all the drafts of posts unfinished or unpublished because I was too scared, or in two minds about. It’s a pretty large document now – 455 pages! I decided to try to organise the unwritten drafts into topics, and spent the weekend doing that. The time might have been better spent cleaning out the room in which I write my blogs, but maybe I’ll aim at next weekend for that!
What I found interesting was that I also deleted a number of posts I’d drafted in the past. They now don’t seem like things I would post here. So even though I started this blog some years into my No Kidding life, some years after I’d been trying to conceive, I obviously felt like getting some things off my chest then, that I don’t feel are appropriate now. Or at least, they don’t fit with who I am, and what I try to write about now. When I do write about slights against me or see discrimination against the No Kidding, it will be relevant to how I am feeling at the time. But I’m not going to go back and revisit these issues without a specific prompt. Even (I promise) when I’m getting desperate for a new blog topic!
I guess I’m saying that this blog has developed, and has grown up a little. I was a little surprised to find that, as I wasn’t really aware of it. It has made me happy to find that the blog has development into something a little bigger than my own gripes. Because what I really want to do is talk about topics that still affect me and require my attention, or topics that I think or hope will help others who are following me into a No Kidding life.
Not that this post will do that. It’s a musing on change and growth, which comes to us all. It’s perhaps a reminder too that reflection can be valuable, shining a light on how far we’ve come. Last, but not least, it’s a reminder of the benefits of tidying up!