November is an important date for this blog. My first post was on 12 November 2010, and talked about how November is both a time of promise, and a time of loss for me. It is spring in New Zealand, and our summer holiday season looms. It’s a time when the country collectively begins to relax at the end of a busy year and look forward to the summer and the future.
Back in the early 2000s, it was – for a while – a time of extra optimism for me too. But now I have hindsight, and I know those few weeks of hope were soon slammed in December with pregnancy losses and everything that came after that. I know too, that when it was clear that everything was over for me, November was the month that it really hit home, almost 18 years ago. I wrote about it here a few weeks after my first post, later in that November.
But that was also the month that I began to turn the corner, even though I didn’t realise it at the time, didn’t see that it would or even could happen, didn’t trust that life could and would still be good. So in many ways, November is about possibilities too.
It's helpful for me to remember that now, with everything else we are dealing with in the world. I hope we are all turning the corner for the better.
Note: If you're interested, I'm also revisiting Novembers today over on A Separate Life.
corner turning..... hope so. But from where I am the corner happening is not the one I hoped would be. Numbers are headed in wrong direction.
ReplyDeleteLove thinking of you entering fully into spring and heading towards summer. Hope you can be out and enjoying it.
So true about grieving and healing and turning the corner and finding a way to see new possibilities, however different they may be from what we had originally hoped for. Like you, logic was a big component for me, too.
ReplyDeleteTurning the corner is such a powerful thing. You don't really know it at the time, but it's so great to look back and say, "Oh, THAT'S when I started making peace/accepting/transitioning." It's good to remember that when there is grief, there is also that corner-turning moment that will come at some point. I sincerely hope we're hitting that with the pandemic, but I just don't know.
ReplyDeleteWell, you know MY feelings about November, lol -- always a hard month for me, to the point that I have a tag/label on my blog, "I hate November." ;) Although I must admit Novembers have been better since I stopped working! And there's Christmas to look forward to, too!
ReplyDeleteUnfortunately, the numbers here are heading in the wrong direction, too (as Anonymous noted) -- not to mention the discovery of the new Omicron variant. :(
Yes, I tempted fate with Omicron, didn't I?!
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