Tomorrow will be six weeks since my surgery. Whilst I’m still under the care of my
surgeon, and will be for a few more weeks until some issues are resolved, today
I was cleared to start some gentle exercise, and resume most normal activities.
I have to say, I feel alternately exhilarated and
terrified. Both for the same
reason. Because now (or at least in a
month or two) there is no longer any room for excuses. The
health issues that required me to have surgery have influenced my life over the
last few years, and very intensely since we returned from our extended overseas
travels late last year. They have
restricted my life in a number of ways, and this resulted in a loss of
confidence and a mental block when looking at the future.
But I'm pleased to report that right now I feel free, unencumbered,
and enthusiastic about the future. I remember that this is also how I felt years ago when I
realised that I was enjoying life without kids. I realised that I was feeling
professionally challenged and satisfied, personally buoyed by accomplishments
and skills and feedback as a volunteer, and as a result, personally content
with all that was going on in my life.
My aim is to get back to that place. And the difference is that this time, I don’t
have to overcome grief and self-doubt to do it.
… OK, maybe a little self-doubt, but that’s only natural isn't it?
Very natural about the self-doubt. Glad to hear that you can start doing some gentle exercises. My body's aching to have some exercises, but I've been having a cold and I have a rather busy work schedule, so I dare not exert myself just yet.
ReplyDeleteHere's to feeling free and enthusiastic about the future and overcoming a little self-doubt!
I'm glad that you're doing better. Remember that they said gentle exercise and don't overdo. Isn't it wonderful when we feel enthusiastic about the future? :-)
ReplyDeleteI am happy to read this post!
ReplyDeleteXO,
I'm so glad you're feeling better and are beginning the transition back to the state you want to be in. It can be so hard to get this process started, but you sound like you're in an excellent place and have the wind in your sails. May it be a smooth transition filled with lots of reward and excitement.
ReplyDeleteGreat to hear you're getting back in the groove and feeling stronger!
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