In January, I started Yoga with
Adriene’s 30 Day Yoga Camp. Each day has a particular mantra, something to
think about as you practise, something to help you as you go through your day.
Sometimes these have been helpful, and I may write about them too, but the day
the mantra was “I trust” I admit that I felt a little betrayed. Because I don’t
believe that the universe will provide, or that it will be okay in the end, or
that “everything happens for a reason.”
As I thought about it, I realised I don’t really trust in much
– certainly not the universe, a religion, my health or my body, society or
politics, financial security, or even the security and stability of the ground
beneath me (given there is no ground beneath me
- for quite a few metres at least - and what’s there can be shaky).
But then I realised, I do trust in my ability to get through
things – or at least, to know I can come out the other side. That’s not nothing
either.
So, for obvious reasons, I’m holding on to that now - you should, too.
That is perfect!
ReplyDeleteThis is so true! Still thinking about you a lot! (((HUGS)))
ReplyDeleteYou and I see the world very similarly. I trust in what I can control and how I will respond to a situation. Outside of that, the rest I can't control and hence don't trust. But maybe all we need to to trust ourselves.
ReplyDeleteStill sending love and thinking of you daily.
Oh, beautiful. All you can really trust in is yourself, and your ability to meet the challenges that come your way. I feel similarly to you in not trusting outside forces whatever they may be to come through, or even things like health. I am thinking of you as you heal, and cheering for your trust in yourself.
ReplyDeleteI’ve come to a similar thinking over the past decade. Outside forces, the universe, everything happening for a reason. No, sometimes that seems to be a cruel joke.
ReplyDeleteI trust in myself to control what I can and I understand sometimes it might not be enough, but it’s enough for me.
As someone who struggles with trust, this resonated with me. Though sometimes I don't even trust my ability to get through something. Sometimes I feel like I get through it simply because life drags me through vs. purposefully working my way through it.
ReplyDeleteAnd maybe you can trust your partner too. that thought makes me happy, to know we do not take our relationship for granted, but we trust each other / ourselves enough to make it work.
ReplyDeleteLove it! And so, so true.
ReplyDeleteIt's funny, having just started yoga teacher training I find myself (not surprisingly) surrounded by the belief that things are put in front of you for a reason and much "meant to be" drivel. We share the same spin on the trust thing - trust in ourselves. Such a relief to read a kindred spirit:-)
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